Unsent text message to Amanda

even if i fall in love again i know he wouldnt be as accurate as you because i saw myself in you whether it be your struggles , feelings or other events that occurred in your life we lived the same life id say you were literally like a male version of me and for the first time i felt like i was ready to take this…

This feeling in my stomach won’t go away I don’t even know why I’m trying anymore All I think about is you and I know you aren’t thinking about me.. it’s ******* me. I don’t know if I have any fight left in me I’m so tired and cold There’s a lump in my throat I bite my lip constantly to keep the tears from streaming…

I was going to do a letter but you dont deserve that kind of effort. I had a draft saved up somewhere but I might as well be a smidge classy with it.

You're nothing but filth.

He used you as a stepping stone. A hole for a night.

He never loved you. (Which he's told me himself)…

I like you too much. You text me and you double text **** even have triple texted me…that’s how I can guess. Because you don’t care about how I see you. You don’t worry about seeming cool. You said you weren’t ready for serious and I know you have another’s attention…I think you only see me as a friend. I wonder if…

I saw all of you last night leaving Larry’s , kinda dressed like *******.

I don’t know why it’s a game to follow me around. Next time yall are gonna find me !

I literally feel physically sick to my stomach everyday. I haven’t been eating. I have been crying everyday. I can’t focus on a god damn thing. I feel so sick that someone you claim to love so much you hurt so much. You attack so much. You don’t even care. Nothing I say or do will ever make you comprehend anything…