Unsent text message to Mason

All i wanna say is thank you, ur the best thing and worst thing happened to me

You knew he wasn’t allowed to. You had every opportunity to not engage in his downfall, but you did. You have multiple shallow relationships and have been disappointed your whole life. You poached someone previously trusted and deeply loved. Shame on you. You’re complicit. You didn’t get what you were looking for…

The one's where I have a dream you've opened a snap, and responded with something simple:

"I'll make time"

Something no one can make, but especially not now. Never you for me, not anymore. That in itself is okay.

It's waking to see the solid blue or red arrow greeting me when I hoped to see the empty blue text cloud that…

There are so many what ifs I'm okay with leaving behind.

A litany of oh wells.

A library of coulda beens.

So very many "don't be sad it ended, be happy that it happeneds."…

i loved you truly and you knew that we were so similar and encountered same events in life and you knew this was what you wanted; comfort,care,lots of love and assurance you knew i mightve been the one for you yet you love bombed me and left i was the avoidant and you were attached funny how the roles switched and 7…

Today I needed a lighter. To smoke my legal. I picked white for death—change. The death of the old, so the new can grow. Though I am terrified not so much of change but of comfort, not of the future’s uncertainty but its very possibility. What needs to die is this—harboring you in my heart, an empty boat, abandoned