Unsent text message to Justin

She was mever going to love you. She was never going to be the answer you're searching for. They don't have to talk to you. They all despise you. You see it and hear it. But you let it slide because you want affection. Just go ******* cry about it. Cry because you're lonely. Cry for the death of the old you. Cry…

Did you see the moon this morning?

Did it make you think of me?

I miss you.

With every passing day I miss you more. I see something completely insignificant and it still somehow reminds me of you. It hurts. I wish I could take back all the bad things I’ve done to you and I wish you stayed.

Please stay.

I think the universe is trying to torture me with you . Because I’ve tried so hard to ignore you to forget you . And you probably want nothing to do with me and that’s okay . But **** it was fine one min and then like you hated me . And I don’t understand why … and I dislike that I can’t get you out of my mind .

You have plainly never been enough for me. And with how everything has played out and what I’ve been finding out about you. It was the best decision I’ve ever made in my entire life. I’ll always choose having no one and being depressed than with someone who would’ve brought me more pain in the end. There’s not enough…

I look sad, but I wouldn’t change a thing. Not the ending, not the start. Not even this giant hole in my chest would make me want to change this. I miss you, but I’ve passed half my stages of healing.

You look happy, but are you so? Don’t you regret it?

I was always your favourite