Unsent text message to Bailey

I think the universe is trying to torture me with you . Because I’ve tried so hard to ignore you to forget you . And you probably want nothing to do with me and that’s okay . But **** it was fine one min and then like you hated me . And I don’t understand why … and I dislike that I can’t get you out of my mind .

You have plainly never been enough for me. And with how everything has played out and what I’ve been finding out about you. It was the best decision I’ve ever made in my entire life. I’ll always choose having no one and being depressed than with someone who would’ve brought me more pain in the end. There’s not enough…

I look sad, but I wouldn’t change a thing. Not the ending, not the start. Not even this giant hole in my chest would make me want to change this. I miss you, but I’ve passed half my stages of healing.

You look happy, but are you so? Don’t you regret it?

I was always your favourite

Dude, anyone who knows you love plushies is going to know that's you.

I am really scared for the first time. I’m close. 😢

Hi my love, I really miss you… I miss the person I got to see smile and laugh… I’m sorry I was the one who brought you so much pain…💔😞 I’m sorry I couldn’t protect you from that experience… I always wish I could go back in time, fly to where you are, and just figure it out sometimes. But… I’m still in school, I…