Unsent text message to Susan

You have plainly never been enough for me. And with how everything has played out and what I’ve been finding out about you. It was the best decision I’ve ever made in my entire life. I’ll always choose having no one and being depressed than with someone who would’ve brought me more pain in the end. There’s not enough…

I look sad, but I wouldn’t change a thing. Not the ending, not the start. Not even this giant hole in my chest would make me want to change this. I miss you, but I’ve passed half my stages of healing.

You look happy, but are you so? Don’t you regret it?

I was always your favourite

Dude, anyone who knows you love plushies is going to know that's you.

I am really scared for the first time. I’m close. 😢

Hi my love, I really miss you… I miss the person I got to see smile and laugh… I’m sorry I was the one who brought you so much pain…💔😞 I’m sorry I couldn’t protect you from that experience… I always wish I could go back in time, fly to where you are, and just figure it out sometimes. But… I’m still in school, I…

It was no longer any use for me to keep texting you. If you remember how I used to be, I could find any excuse or any reason to reach out. I was desperate for us to work. I wanted us to be together so badly that, even when I knew our relationship wasn’t good for either of us, I still kept trying. I kept holding on…