Unsent text message to David

Obviously our time is over, and I still don't know why exactly Im still thinking about you. I've never really had problems getting over people until I met you. There was something different with you and I don't know why I let myself jump head first into the lions den.

I still miss you every now and then. I still think…

C.W, I come here too often, hoping to see something that is meant for me, from you.....but...the reality is, I know there will never be, and this kind of thing is never for me. I'm never that fortunate. I still like reading the posts though.... imagining that you somehow feel that way about me and would care about me…

Didn't it feel like this time was different? You always knew i lived a day in the future. Was that surprising to find that hole down there? I knew you had it. I wasn't sure if you knew how to work it. If i could only be on the same day as you. We could worl rhis out. But I'm always one day in the future. I may never…

..no contact. It has been an incredibly difficult seven days... Or one hundred and sixty eight hours... Or ten thousand and eighty minutes... Or six hundred and four thousand, eight hundred seconds. Makes it seem like such a tremendous victory to look at it that way.

Go us!

your email, some morphine, and tramadol made things better. thank you for accepting my apology. and for making extra time for me next week. i love you and never meant to hurt you <3 time for a nap... hoping i can feel better and get studying, writing, and reading done this weekend.

Remember when u got mad and quit bc i had to train C? I was just telling her how glue worked for the 3rd time. You couldn't stand that i had trained you like.that at one time. Funny thing though, you understood glue from the beginning. I mean who doesn't understand how ******* glue works? You felt like she was after…