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C.W, I come here too often, hoping to see something that is meant for me, from you.....but...the reality is, I know there will never be, and this kind of thing is never for me. I'm never that fortunate. I still like reading the posts though.... imagining that you somehow feel that way about me and would care about me and miss me too, but I'm sure you don't even notice my absence, or just brushed it off and moved on. Maybe in an alternate universe you do feel that way about me too. I am intentionally avoiding you....and it's for the best...I can't look into your eyes right now, I can't see that smile knowing that it's not for me. It's the only way for me to forget you. So, my heart aches every time I read these odes to love, and aching for lost love. I guess I'm a glutton for punishment. I hope you are well though. I always think about you, I hope that you reach home safely each day, that your day at work was not too stressful...but alas...like I said, I guess I'm a glutton for punishment. - M.P
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