Unsent text message to Matthew

You said to me "I can tell if you've had a morning just looking at you" and I begged and begged inside hoping you would just look. You didn't. I understand. I think i may be a tiny bit glad you didn't cause I would of just broke down into tears looking at you.

Today was a bad morning. I wish you was here.

I have been called in the last 2 weeks from an unknown number. Every time I answered I asked who it was. And every time the person hung up without saying anything.

My head imagines that it’s you. Because you miss my voice.

But that’s ********. You don’t care.

I hope you see this. I was at a texaco gas station in Johnson city Tennessee. You had the hood up on your car and asked if i could help you. You had beautiful straight black hair and said you needed to put oil in your car but couldn't get the cap off. Afterwards we were talking and u ended up giving me a bj behind the…

twirl my hair between your fingers and whisper your dark side into my ears as you press your warmth against me (song: love as a weapon- Jupiluxe, Eknonair playing in the back ground)

💋🌙

I hope you remember the first time we met was at a texaco in Johnson city Tennessee. U needed to put some oil in your car and u couldn't get the cap off and asked ne to help you. You had jet black hair. You thanked me and ended up giving me bj behind the gas station. I didn't get your name or nothing but if you ever…

and apologized. I would forgive you. maybe.