Unsent text message to Adam

When my heart and mind are in turmoil, all I can think about are the "what ifs." It drives me crazy. It gives me that same discomfort, same sense of dread as that one poem by Sylvia Plath does--Fig Tree. I probably think about that poem way too often.

Since it's gotten to the point where it's been unbearable to keep it…

Moving on hasn’t been easy. I’m not the type of person that can just turn off her feelings. When I love someone I love them forever. Yet, that love can change to something duller. It won’t be as bright as it used to be. I’d be lying to myself if I said I didn’t miss you, but I can’t stay in love with someone who never…

Our last conversation leading up to us parting ways was so hard. We both wanted to be heard with too much of our own pain to hear each other. I feel so bad we couldn't have said goodbye the right way. We got the timing wrong once again. I wish I could send you this.

I'm gonna miss you forever.

I need you to know you did…

My mind is finally my own. You said something profound. I trust it will help you heal. Someday.

I know we were only together that one night. We took a shower together the next day and tou were gone. Its been a long time now. You probably don't even remember. I've never wanted to aee a woman again so much in my life. The next day you didn't stop by. I never saw you again. I meant to pullout but you said leave it…

I was never who they said I was. I’m not who they say. In fact, you will never know me now because you chose to believe them instead of discovering me on your own. I’d like to say I can forget but I can’t. I’m not in the business of proving myself. If it’s easier for you to believe in a narrative that keeps you comfy…