Unsent text message to Mark

and apologized. I would forgive you. maybe.

Our conflict is settled. Just tell me why. Please.

When my heart and mind are in turmoil, all I can think about are the "what ifs." It drives me crazy. It gives me that same discomfort, same sense of dread as that one poem by Sylvia Plath does--Fig Tree. I probably think about that poem way too often.

Since it's gotten to the point where it's been unbearable to keep it…

Moving on hasn’t been easy. I’m not the type of person that can just turn off her feelings. When I love someone I love them forever. Yet, that love can change to something duller. It won’t be as bright as it used to be. I’d be lying to myself if I said I didn’t miss you, but I can’t stay in love with someone who never…

Our last conversation leading up to us parting ways was so hard. We both wanted to be heard with too much of our own pain to hear each other. I feel so bad we couldn't have said goodbye the right way. We got the timing wrong once again. I wish I could send you this.

I'm gonna miss you forever.

I need you to know you did…

My mind is finally my own. You said something profound. I trust it will help you heal. Someday.