Unsent text message to Jasmine

It’s strange that somebody can make you so happy when they are with you and things are good. When they flip that switch because they are tired of you or bored of you the world feels like it comes crashing down. It hurts so much to be rejected and forgotten by the one you want the most. How does this come to be? This…

I wasn’t sure if I should let you know or not, it seems like you want nothing to do with me. I got my dream job, the one we always talked about… the one at the same location as you. I haven’t run into you yet but I’m terrified to… it’s funny bc when I was unstable after our breakup I wanted nothing but to see you and…

So close yet so far ha ha. Just a train away. Do I want to see you? Do I not want to see you? Do I want to talk to you? Do I not want to talk to you?

And if I do see you .. what do I do? What’s the whole point? Rekindle somn that’ll blow up in my face again cos I’m not exactly what you want?

F*ck this and **** you for…

I just miss you. I just want to know you’re okay I want to look into your eyes and see for myself that you’re happy I adore you I long for you I can’t get you out of my head, just like you wanted. I want to feel your breath on me I want to feel your body pressed against mine I want to look in your eyes Kiss you so…

The Bright Parade is Saturday.

BRiGHT Parade Sat Sept 26.

Parade 7:30-8:30pm, starts & ends at 8th & Pearl. Afterparty at Farmers Market Pavilion til 10pm. Free!

Theme: KiNDNESS. Wear something glowy…

this weekend. I’ll be there. I wish I could talk to you.

I don’t know what I did to deserve this heartache.