Unsent text message to Lucas

I used to hate that I love you. I'm tired of fighting it. I do love you. Fully platonic, but just as scary. I was jealous that anyone else got to experience you. I see how that's my mind now. No longer jealous, but my love for you remains. Just now I've learned to love you better. 💋😘

I'm no fool. There's no future…

Light creeps into every crevice of my life, like opening a door to some locked room that has been dark for decades. While light shines through the window, someone just now notices the dust hanging on in the air. Like memories suspended in time and it’s a bitter sting to feel the echos of you in my life.

This week marks…

I wish i would have reacted differently. I know i was in the wrong. I know your worst fear was that i might like a **** every once in a while. Is that so bad? It didn't mean i didn't want you. I wanted you a lot and all the time. Its just when you aren't around i start thinking about a ****. I just didn't think you…

I wasn’t ready to come back but I did… for you. I knew I needed more time. But you needed me and do I get credit for that. No. I’m just an ******* who apparently never loved you even though I still love you more than anything in this world. No I’m going out of signal. Goodnight 🐿️. I was mad yes but I still love you

Regardless thats the ending until you come to me with honesty about it. Yes i heard. Of course im upset, more upset by you lying about it. Did not take you for a liar and backstabber, but hey im definitely not always right

I mean Goodbye. The opportunity was given. It’s my season now.