Unsent text message to Austin

Good riddance. You were a ******* slob. I mistook cleaning up after you for love when really you were just a grown man who lived like someone’s unsupervised teenage son. Losing you hurt for a while. Losing your mess was immediate relief. My only regret is that I didn’t throw you out with the rest of the garbage sooner.

To my Bonnie situation. COME GET MEEEEEE!!! I’ve fallen and I can’t get up!!! I can’t tell when you’re here or gone and it’s scary sometimes. I need true clarity and I know out of everyone you’ll tell me the truth. They won’t eveeeeer!!!! It you see this. Just know I do now need you BAAAAD…. I fear I’ve lost you…

I’m so tired today, and all I want is you here. I want to lie next to you, tell you about my day and switch my brain off for a while. I don’t want to fix anything or have some big conversation. I just want to be next to you and feel safe again. Days like today make me miss having my person so much. I wish I could just…

I cant believe its already been 5 months. Well i guess its true time flys when you keep yourself occupied.

You gave me depression, anxiety, PTSD. I've od on meds and can't do anything anymore. And the lies!! If you cared I would have the truth by now. I want to be in the mountains in peace and alone

I would have needed a shoe horn to get in…Just sayin hahaha 🤭