Unsent text message to Alyssa

I don't want things to be platonic, I want to be more than just friends but I know that you don't feel the same. If you somehow see this, no you didn't. We can keep pretending these feelings don't exist.

I hope every single day that today will be the day. That today my phone will finally ring, or my messenger will finally ding, or you'll finally show up at my door. Yet, it never does and it never will. It's depressing knowing that a single person has that much control over my emotional state. Even more so when I…

We aren’t like some 12 years old’s, and especially not you. I genuinely don’t see why I should message you “happy birthday” when we’re no longer together. I think this has less to do with your birthday and more to do with you wanting some sort of excuse for contact between us. I’m not like your other exes who may…

I hope every single day that today will be the day. That today my phone will finally ring, or my messenger will finally ding, or you'll finally show up at my door. Yet, it never does and it never will. It's depressing knowing that a single person has that much control over my emotional state. Even more so when I…

My outlook on you is always gonna forever now be something similar to "**** - pink guy", or along the lines of at the nicest "sueco- p.o.s". You choose this everyday, blame yourself.

You can help yourself you know, you don’t have to track me anymore, your obsession is pathetic. Narcissistic and demanding, no matter how much you think your support is support, you just ******* cut me down and pointed to the hospital. You blamed everyone but yourself, everyone who cared about me could see it. In the…