Unsent text message to Patricia

I like the way you feel in there too much.

I will wait.

I know. I sent you the “this was my experience” letter. It’s the one that has the truth in it. Not the sugar-coating. Not the one that takes all the blame. The one that owns my actions and lays yours bare. Your particular makeup won’t allow this to stand, so I’m sure you dulled it out after the first few paragraphs…

I miss my friend. I miss the dreams we shared. I miss the late night talks. I miss laying next to you and running my fingers through your hair. I know we can never be that again and you chose that I just miss being your person. I hate having so much anger for you. I really wish our ending was a better story. Our time…

Started writing: Happy Birthday 🎁🎂

Then deleted … write it again…. 😔

I guess some texts should remain unsent

I dont think you know just how special you are to me. The one man who made me feel like a little girl. Who made me get butterflies just at the thought of your name. Who made me be excited to knock off becuase you are coming to pick me and I just cant wait to see your cute face.

The first time we met? You came to pick…

Hola mi niña (if I can even call you that anymore…) I saw Juan today, he was in town for work. He asked me about you and what happened. I gave him the “long story short”.

I’m not gonna lie, it was hard. It felt like there was so much good that I also wanted to rave about. About how you were also so great. You are, you…