Unsent text message to Susan

we've officially beaten our record for the longest time not speaking by 100 days tomorrow. 116 days. That hurts really bad still.

I know I need to let go .. but it’s hard to forget you.

I know it’s been a while since we talked, and I know our last conversation wasn’t how either of us wanted it to go. I just really wanted to say I'm sorry. This summer I got myself into therapy, and it helped me realize that I pushed you away by letting my own insecurities project into the relationship. You did your…

From the time Ive seperate from you I've had two dreams with you.... In both you've asked to keep loving you.... In one I said yes but it felt so... Weird, I kept asking why I said yes when I woke up... ik we talked about having dreams of the other one but... I had another dream, I saw you and I tried to walk away but…

I know you said to reach out. I won’t… you kinda take 5-7 business days to answer 🤣

Our love was not meant to be. It just happened. It will never be accepted and I will always grief what it could of been.