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Hey, I want to explain.
Before making big decisions, I try to take three days if I can. That way, I'm not making a choice based on snap judgment or on flared, surface level feelings. Three days to weigh my options, pros and cons, wants and reality, and any presenting evidence. It feels like torture sometimes. Both in moments where I want to act, or I dread making any decision at all. I'm far enough now in my life that if it makes you nervous or extremely excited, take the three days to decide.
I've literally made a pros and cons list. This is hard for me and I'm scared. Not in a "I'm terrified and alone" kind of way, but in a "either descion could end poorly" kind of way. Like a Trolley problem.
All I'm saying is if it seems like I'm dragging my feet, I'm actually getting a migraine from thinking and taking a break and then thinking more. Deliberating on the important descion. Any choice that's big enough or any person that's important enough deserves that kind of thought. I hope those in my life that have to deal with it understand. Just one more day, if you will, for me...please.
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