Unsent text message to Christopher

Six years, and the silence you left behind is still the loudest thing in every room I walk into.

We were always terrible at staying together. We were a cycle of wreckage and return, leaving each other, bleeding out the distance, and then crawling back to the start because neither of us knew how to survive the quiet…

Sometimes I need someone to be my rock just like I am theirs. Sometimes I get tired too. Sometimes I want something too just some emotions. Just a little bit. I want a vacation from everyone's rock just for a day. Can it be all about me. A day where I don't have to prove myself just a day when I'm me. Someone asks me…

Maybe in another life we are just two cats in love, hiding in the shadows and eating out of a rich couple's dumpster. Maybe then, this wouldn't be so hard. We could just curl up together in the dark, just us, so promise you'll meow at me then, just so I know it's you. But in this life, we have to keep our distance…

Here I am writing about you, wishing you could hear this from me myself but you obviously made it clear you don’t want to talk anymore, since you unfriended me on everything without giving me an explanation nor an answer on why you left without telling me you want to break up. You did say you were on the verge of…

Woke up missing you a whole lot. Don’t think posting on here is helping me move on. I keep looking at other posts hoping it would be you. It’s driving me crazy lol. My therapist told me to start journaling. I guess I’m treating this as something like that but it’s not right, when I write here there’s a little side of…

they meant it.

they did it.

and now you need to release it.