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Woke up missing you a whole lot. Don’t think posting on here is helping me move on. I keep looking at other posts hoping it would be you. It’s driving me crazy lol. My therapist told me to start journaling. I guess I’m treating this as something like that but it’s not right, when I write here there’s a little side of me that thinks that maybe you’ll see it.
To be honest the hopeless romantic in me hopes you find these and reach out to me. As one way for you to show me that you care about me.
Ik you’re good at finding things online. Do you care what’s going on in my mind? If im hurting? Do you care enough about my inner thoughts to try and find these? I know it’s crazy lol… I just can’t tell that when you text me if it’s just to convince me to take you back… it just doesn’t feel like you care about what hurts me… it just feels more like you’re trying to win an argument or make yourself not feel as bad.
I just want you to care about my feelings. Not because it would make you a good girlfriend. Not because how my reaction to you makes you feel. Just because you genuinely, just, freaking care about me. That’s all I freaking wanted😭
I know you are probably devastated. I know you are suffering. And just that, makes me wanna go back for the simple fact that I love you and I want to make you and see you happy. It’s just hard to continue to put you first over myself though, after knowing you don’t do the same, even after all these years 😔
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