Unsent text message to Jackson

I just wanted you to know that I'm still here. It's been over a month since we last talked and I know it's probably my fault. When you didn't answer my call, I should have sent you a text letting you know that I wanted to hear from you, that I wanted you to call me back and talk to me. But I got emotional and logic…

I wonder if you care now? I wonder if you notice I’m gone and not coming back. I wonder if you miss my kisses. im sure you don’t and I’m glad.

Hey K, it’s me.

I know we officially parted ways quite a few months ago now but the honest truth is, I keep looking for you.

I search here, the place we met, I even use your old username hoping something would come up but, nothing.

I miss you, just as I think things are getting better and you’re out of my mind, something…

Being with you was the most painful experience I’ve ever had

Lately, it feels like my world is slowly falling apart. There are days when everything feels heavier than I know how to carry, and I’m so tired of pretending I’m okay. I go through the motions, smile when I’m supposed to, and keep most of what I’m feeling hidden. And then I see you. For a little while, everything…

i know we talked a bit about it last night in between our bantering but I was serious. I do want you to pursue me. make me feel as wanted and loved as i do for you. I know you say you feel the same and eventually want to do so… but why not start now? that playful intimacy we have with each other is important to…