Unsent text message to Sarah

Being with you was the most painful experience I’ve ever had

Lately, it feels like my world is slowly falling apart. There are days when everything feels heavier than I know how to carry, and I’m so tired of pretending I’m okay. I go through the motions, smile when I’m supposed to, and keep most of what I’m feeling hidden. And then I see you. For a little while, everything…

i know we talked a bit about it last night in between our bantering but I was serious. I do want you to pursue me. make me feel as wanted and loved as i do for you. I know you say you feel the same and eventually want to do so… but why not start now? that playful intimacy we have with each other is important to…

You made me immortal bc not one god damn thing matters.

And I dont want you to be confused like many shallow thinkers might think "bla bla bla you dont make someone youre whole life youre whole world". My life isnt over because you were the only thing I had. One time you told me get a life lol and its like... bruh…

Possum creek it is then

I don’t understand why I can’t seem to get over you. After everything. I feel so much anger towards you and honestly I kind of ******* hate you… but also if you came to me and said your mind had changed and you wanted to pursue things with me… I’d say yes in a heartbeat.

I hate that you have that power over me. I hate…