Unsent text message to Emily

I want to be wanted. I hate feeling like I don't know where I stand. I know you are going through stuff but you arent forthcoming. I want to be desired. I want you to prove me wrong. I cant be in the dark corner and watch another girl in the front row.

Its obvious your attention is elsewhere. I have to cut my loses…

I am never speaking to you again. I’m selling all your **** tomorrow too. I hate you. I hate myself for staying. I’m no longer entangled in your cruel abuse. **** you for breaking my heart and who I was as a person. I wish nothing but the absolute worse for you.

I disappeared without a word.

I know I said I wouldn’t do that again. I meant it when I said it. I thought if the day ever came that I had to leave, I would explain myself. I thought I owed you that much after all these years.

But what was left to explain?

You knew where my heart was. You knew what hurt me. You knew what…

It's been so long. I know I've changed a lot, and I’m sure you have too. I sometimes wonder what a conversation between us would look like now. Would we still want each other.

Did I see you? Text me — I'd love to meet you.

Life's ******* short and I dont wanna be just friends you know. But im afraid if I say this youll just ghost me or ill forever be in the friend zone. Just have to wait for my moment.