Unsent text message to Blake

I should've never let you in. This was mine. I am me, I'm all-in-one, one-size-fits-all, remember? As in, why did I share myself with you? I have three, and I gave you all. I have no metaphor or extensive language or anything of that such.

You just ******* suck.

I have been here, waiting for you to come back to me. I have been looking for you around every corner and in every face I see, but none of them are yours. So lately, I’ve been looking down.

You are the energy that runs the machine that is me, and I was programmed to love you. And yours was me, too.

You live inside my…

I see people in love all the time. The kind of love where they can freely be together without any problems, and no one bats an eye at them. Gosh, I wish we could have had that. I envy them because I can never have that, well at least not with you. I hate how things are, and I hate the internal conviction I get every…

I think it’s time for me to tell you, we have taken this journey far beyond the depths of anything I could’ve ever expected. I am completely smitten and fallen, and I know that you are too. I’ve never had a feeling so pure in all of my life and time is ticking as I get older, the most painful thing ever would be to…

Seriously, what is wrong with you? Am I really worth so little that you just dump me like that? Did you just want to practice with me to gain some experience for your next girlfriend? I am so ******* lonely. I try to make friends, but it never works out. Please tell me what I’m doing wrong. Tell me what exactly is so…

i'm so excited to see you tomorrow... just as one of my favorite humans :)

With love.