Unsent text message to Haley

Can anyone take a sec and pray for me seriously from their hear am in a fix , i did make a mistake but now am here crying and hoping for a miracle please just a sec from your whole life and pray for me I seriously want prayer to work or I will break bad so bad that I won’t be able to survive

I don't know what it is that I want to say to you, I don't know what I wanna tell you because I know I can't tell you anything that's gonna make you stay. I don't know what I want from you, I guess I just want an apology. Deep down i have this hope that a few years from now you unblock me and apologize for leaving…

Well this went exactly like dream every little detail. Down to me having to walk back to the bird pooping my clothes

Im just ******. ****** that you can’t see these scenarios the way I needed you to see them. ****** at the unfair things that you did to me and refused to fully accept.

At the same time, I can also see your good qualities. You’re not all bad lol ofc not and that’s why I stayed for so long. Cus I loved so much of you.

At t…

I was on my way to class and I was thinking of you. as I always do.

I was near a construction site that I always pass on my way to classes or wherever.

two clouds forming a heart shaped hole of the sky.

what do you think? were you thinking of me? do you think it was a sign…

Why did you text me? What is wrong with you? You cause my heart such ache, you know you abandon me you know you have no intention of coming back so why? Why do you do it? Why am I so easy for you to throw away and bring up again? Why is it so easy to keep me on a leash like a rabid dog that only behaves for you…