Unsent text message to Jessica

I was on my way to class and I was thinking of you. as I always do.

I was near a construction site that I always pass on my way to classes or wherever.

two clouds forming a heart shaped hole of the sky.

what do you think? were you thinking of me? do you think it was a sign…

Why did you text me? What is wrong with you? You cause my heart such ache, you know you abandon me you know you have no intention of coming back so why? Why do you do it? Why am I so easy for you to throw away and bring up again? Why is it so easy to keep me on a leash like a rabid dog that only behaves for you…

i still want to go with you next week if i had my choice... but i wanna talk first

even if we don't go next week, id still prefer that we find time to talk

I keep wanting to tell you things.

That’s probably the stupidest part.

Nothing important, either. Just little things.

Something funny happens and for half a second I think I should send it to you. I hear a song you would probably make fun of and I want to know what you'd say. I see something in a shop and think you'd…

I’m still sorry for what happened, and I do miss you. But I respect that you don’t feel the same, and I have no intention of reaching out again. I guess I just needed to put that somewhere, even if it’s here to no one. I’m also sorry about my last email it really was an accident. I didn’t realize Gmail’s “smart”…

I fought tooth and nail, but nothing was ever good enough for you. You said you were better than my kids dad? No not really.. just because you didnt hit me doesnt mean you didnt break me. Except in 1 matter you were better and that was you were honest when it came down to you were honest when you got me pregnant. You…