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I don't know what it is that I want to say to you, I don't know what I wanna tell you because I know I can't tell you anything that's gonna make you stay. I don't know what I want from you, I guess I just want an apology. Deep down i have this hope that a few years from now you unblock me and apologize for leaving without saying goodbye. I just want to know why you did it. I used to mean so much to you or at least that's what I thought. I don't understand you at all anymore or perhaps I never understood you before. I want you to care but you so obviously don't and that's what hurts the most. What i want to know the most if you really meant what you said in your letter because from what I see it's so obvious you did not. I can't say anything to make you stay when you so clearly do not want to. I just hate that I can't bring myself to hate you because for some stupid reason I still continue to care about you even after all these years. You hurt me and you're a big reason that I have a hard time trusting other people. I've told you about the people that have made me become untrusting of others but I never thought you would be on that list, especially after everything we went through. I trusted you with everything, everything, and you knew this. But still you continued to do what you did even when you knew that people leaving without reason or without saying goodbye was one of the things that I've struggled with my whole life. I trusted you and I don't know why because obviously you're not the same person that I felt like I could open up to all those years ago. I can't bring myself to think you're a bad person and I don't know why. I guess I'm just waiting for an apology that I know deep down will never come.
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