Unsent text message to Alexis

I’m still sorry for what happened, and I do miss you. But I respect that you don’t feel the same, and I have no intention of reaching out again. I guess I just needed to put that somewhere, even if it’s here to no one. I’m also sorry about my last email it really was an accident. I didn’t realize Gmail’s “smart”…

I fought tooth and nail, but nothing was ever good enough for you. You said you were better than my kids dad? No not really.. just because you didnt hit me doesnt mean you didnt break me. Except in 1 matter you were better and that was you were honest when it came down to you were honest when you got me pregnant. You…

AHHHH YOU TEXTED ME YOU TEXTED ME!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEE IM SO HAPPY! SO HAPPY!! EVEN IF IT WAS JUST TO BE NICE IM SO HAPPY!!! PLEASE TEXT ME AGAIN, PLEASE? IM BEGGING YOU. LET ME TELL YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY LET ME BE IN YOUR PRESENCE. YOU'RE LIKE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL STORM, SO BEAUTIFUL ID CHOOSE YOU OVER A SUNNY DAY EVERY…

i don’t know why when it comes to you, my brain shuts down and my heart is on autopilot. You are the easiest person to care for. You don’t even have to ask me to help you, Im just on my way every damn time. sacrifice my own comfort for you.

I hope the yearning in my heart stops. i don’t like feeling irrational. I don’t…

You were so sweet, saying how you felt like we got along well, that it’s been long since you connected with someone. I felt like we connected too so that’s why I took the risk and invited you. And you were excited, called and chatted and we started making the plans. Then radio silence.

If you didn’t want to go, you…

I made a mountain out of a molehill these past few months. Maybe even longer. I was stuck in my own self-pity. I hope you’re doing well. And good luck with everything.