Unsent text message to Dylan

I was intimated by your success. I felt like I was not good enough to be next by your side. I acted up arrogantly, trying to distance myself whenever i felt my ego was threatened, but I ended up losing you. You probably thought you were better off being alone than being with a wishy-washy person who may hurt you and…

Hey I hope you're doing well I know you told me you didn't want anything to do with me but I just want to say I don't know what I did like I keep saying before but you and everyone else didn't care to listen why did you come back why did you say you wanted to get back together only for you to randomly message me and…

Glad you texted me yesterday, even if it’s just a out work. Wish I saw you here more often. Tomorrow’s another day. Have a fun day off man :) I FR do miss seeing you.

How can this happen when you have promised me it wouldn't how can you leave me here how can you think that this is better how can you think that I can find someone else how can you just leave and be okay with it how are you not breaking but I am how can you do this so casually after all we've been through like we…

I always tried to be there for you in every way emotionally, financially and physically and I was always the one putting in most of the effort. I got severely depressed and the one time I wasn't there for you you left. You never even tried and talked to me to see what was wrong, you just assumed I didn't care. Why…

All I said on my message was how are you 😔

My mind has been at war with itself. One side says, you care. The other says, if I didn’t wake up tomorrow, you’d be unaffected.

I keep asking the same questions over and over:

Why wasn’t I worth a goodbye? Why wasn’t I worth the truth? Why wasn’t I worth a text back? A…