Unsent text message to Mackenzie

Glad you texted me yesterday, even if it’s just a out work. Wish I saw you here more often. Tomorrow’s another day. Have a fun day off man :) I FR do miss seeing you.

How can this happen when you have promised me it wouldn't how can you leave me here how can you think that this is better how can you think that I can find someone else how can you just leave and be okay with it how are you not breaking but I am how can you do this so casually after all we've been through like we…

I always tried to be there for you in every way emotionally, financially and physically and I was always the one putting in most of the effort. I got severely depressed and the one time I wasn't there for you you left. You never even tried and talked to me to see what was wrong, you just assumed I didn't care. Why…

All I said on my message was how are you 😔

My mind has been at war with itself. One side says, you care. The other says, if I didn’t wake up tomorrow, you’d be unaffected.

I keep asking the same questions over and over:

Why wasn’t I worth a goodbye? Why wasn’t I worth the truth? Why wasn’t I worth a text back? A…

I am still baffled by the decisions you made.

I loved you so deeply. I thought I knew how to love someone, but I learned how deeply I could actually love someone when you showed up. Now I know what I am capable of, and unfortunately, I know what you are capable of.

I could never do to you what you did to me. I could…

That usually means you're either on vacation, or something bad has happened. This isn't the time of year you go on vacation, and I'm worried. I have an idea of what might have happened, and I want to support you but I can't. I think it might make it worse for both of us. I love you, and I miss you.