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I am still baffled by the decisions you made.
I loved you so deeply. I thought I knew how to love someone, but I learned how deeply I could actually love someone when you showed up. Now I know what I am capable of, and unfortunately, I know what you are capable of.
I could never do to you what you did to me. I could never hurt you in that way. How you were able to do something like this to someone you swore you loved with all your heart, I will never understand.
Every morning, I wake up ****** at the world. I wake up with a profound grief that you are not in my life anymore. I really, truly thought that we would grow old together. Build a life that we both wanted together. Now I have to figure out what my life looks like without you.
I still have so many unanswered questions. Things I will probably never really understand. I wanted to give you a chance to explain yourself, but I realized it wouldn't matter.
It is so hard to accept that you won't be in my life anymore. Even if you came back, apologized, and gave it your all, I dont know if I could ever forgive your betrayal. I can't let go of the hope that one day we will come back together, but I know it isn't something I can allow, for my own dignity and respect.
I still love you so deeply, but I hate you for hurting me so badly.
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