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I’m embarrassed that I still think about you. It’s been a year since I stepped on my pride and put my ego aside to offer to drive two hours to see you. After flying out of state. And you refused to see me. I know I rejected you first, but you left with your actions. I just left with words. Still a part of me misses talking to you, the corny jokes, sharing my day, talking about patients. I really liked you, and you couldn’t see it. I know I messed up but you did too, I deserved grace. I can’t keep hating myself for something that your hands also ruined. How do I get you out of my head. I’m too smart for this, I’ve never felt this way about anyone. Maybe it’s because I never opened to anyone like I did with you. And somehow I’m the villain.
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