Unsent text message to Carter

But as I sit back and realize what this is insanity, I get the emotional part of it. I lived it. I do not get the let’s put a crew together and attack him, which makes me laugh because I would have to be a complete irrational, emotionally immature idiot to keep this going. I do have to thank you though remembering a…

It hurt when you ghosted me again after wishing me a sweet happy birthday message I don’t understand

I don't love you anymore. And now that I'm no longer blinded by my love for you I can finally see just how horrible you were to me.

I just wanted to reach out one last time. I know you are reading this. I hope tour doing good. It ***** me to think how we used to be. Now we don't even speak. Joined at the hip, thats what you said. I never wanted to be anything else. There is no doubt that you're a good woman. A great woman. But you ain't…

Never wanted too much. Just to be understood, so that i may understand. But as it goes your love is transactional, and the people intended to guide me never had direction to begin with. Nor wanted it, so why should it impact me?

There were times I just tried to make it through the day so I pushed myself not to think about you, not to text you, to show restraint. You weren’t talking to me, why would I talk to you? And then there’s the fact that I love you more than I love myself. I’d burn the world down to be with you and I used to think you…