Unsent text message to Joseph

We don’t even have to try to fix things I just want to talk to you again. Start over possibly.

Hey, dork ***, open your Bumble and check your likes. I'm sitting here losing my mind waiting on you.

Hey, you didn’t send me a birthday message this year, I was hoping you would, I did get a DM the day before though, but it got unsent, I wonder if that could have been you. I think you’ve finally had enough of me and my lack of just about everything. I am so sorry, for all of it. You’re a great person and you deserve…

Hey.

I was drunk last time I was here. Drunk and missing you.

You deserve more than drunk feelings. You deserve sober ones. I've always had a hard time showing the soft underbelly of my feelings. I know I hurt you by refusing to roll over. Never wanting to show my hand. Always wanting plausible deniability. You deserve…

I know our situation is less than ideal, and if we had waited like a year and a half things would be easier for us. I don’t want to date anyone else no matter how many times you say I can. You’ve set my expectations higher for communication, consistency and care. I can’t imagine being with anyone else at this point. I…

Its been a while hasn't it? How are you? I mean, how are you really?

Our chapter has been closed almost as long as we were together. But I cherish the memories and feelings we created between us and think of them with fondness.

I'm thinking about you because it's almost time for your trip. I hope you have a great time…