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Maybe it's that my pain matched yours, maybe it's the connection I felt to you a year ago. I can't look at you. I still have this stupid draw to you and I hate it. I still hope you'll find me.
You're mean to me, you told me you could never see us together. Maybe I just don't like rejection? I've been rejected before though. I guess it just sucks because all I've ever wanted to do is be there.
I hate you. I hate that I still notice your car, I hate that I can immediately tell if you're nearby. I've done my best to exit your life as much as possible. I hope you are glad, because it's never been a fun game for me.
How was I ever supposed to be okay? I guess it doesn't matter. If I just never acknowledge your existence then hopefully you'll just fade out of mine. I'll stop giving you energy. I still miss you though, and that's the part I hate the most.
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