Unsent text message to Kayla

it just couldn't stand the shame of being in my own skin anymore. i know you know i always get like this. but did you know it's because i just realized how awful i am? and even though i'm not that awful anymore, i just ruin everything i build on a whim because i'm so embarrassed of myself?

All relations, between any people

Cost 1) comfort, and 2) convenience

You really need to internalize that if you hope anything should improve.

I don’t know how much more of this pain I can withstand. Every time I reached for you, each time- you ran away, kicking, screaming, livid with my audacity- calling me schizophrenic, bipolar, insane, to get help, to book myself a bed in the looney bin. Insulted my intelligence, made a joke of my confessions. Made me…

I wish I could tell you how much I want this opportunity and I would trade everything for this, But Im too scared to hurt someone again. So I'll drag this feeling until I die, I love you, Mi amore

Didn't want choices or distractions drama or entertainment, I never even liked those kinda shows

All I want is you

"You are not the right person for me and I lost you. But I foud me. So I win."