Unsent text message to Ryan

I hope you have a good day at work today. I’m excited to see you Saturday night , let’s eat good food , I’ll rub your feet, back ,whatever else is sore and we can cuddle in this beautiful cold weather ❤️💋

I can’t move on because I’m still waiting for the day you realize that I loved you more than words every second of every day with every fiber of my being and I still do. What we had can never be replicated or topped. It was US. Slowly unwrapped, layer by layer, discovering parts of ourselves and each other we hadn’t…

You're nothing like you used to be. WE have been nothing like we used to be for a LONG time.

And yet, quitting you is SO damn hard!

I did the right thing. The brave thing. I said goodbye to the dead "us". And now I'm just in SO much pain!

And for what? Who? You who cares about nothing and noone but yourself? You who…

I wish you would have let me be myself instead of treating me as an inferior being our whole marriage. I'm my own person and you treated me like a ******* domesticated dog.

I had to remove you and block you on everything. Talking to you is a complete waste of time. You used to be a good friend but I don’t even recognize you anymore. Keep playing father to a bunch of teenagers and young 20 somethings with “parent problems” because you have a savior complex. You’re 38 and some of these…

I keep asking what I could do to communicate with me or where I can drive to to see you what I can do to make this work. But I see there’s nothing I could do. It’s the problem I hope you and your little family and your life is great wherever you are I’m sorry. Really sorry I won’t ask you to talk to me or communicate…