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hey friend, Is that weird? Calling you that, I mean. Somewhere along the way, I decided that if I couldn’t have you the way a part of me wanted, maybe I could at least aim for friendship. Is that okay? I don’t know how well I’m doing. I still get butterflies when I see your name, your face, or anything that reminds me of you. Am I struggling? ****, yes. Trying to quiet feelings that refuse to be quiet is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. This unrequited thing is slowly breaking my heart, but I’m trying to be mature about it. I’m trying to let go of what I want and learn to be your friend instead. But is it working? And would you even want me as a friend? ****. There goes my mind again. Now I’m overthinking friendship, too. Honestly, I don’t know what’s wrong with me anymore. I’m trying so hard to find a place for you in my life that doesn’t hurt, and somehow, even friendship feels like something I’m afraid to get wrong.
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