Unsent text message to Eric

Wdyw? Why aré you reaching out now?

Your birthday was 6 days ago and all I can think about was how I wasn’t able to say happy birthday to you for the past 4 years including this one. I still miss you. I wish I knew if you were still on here.

It's not something you fabricate, it isn't something to be concocted carelessly. It isn't a creation we control, merely a force to be reckoned with and respected.

It's not an action or ability, it's alchemy.

At one of my parks. If not than the end is very near . I will love you and good luck . We won’t ever speak again after the end has come. So you can figure it out let me know some how

I cannot actually believe you'd yell at me and my mother again after we constantly put up with your moods and unstable emotions and your verbally abusive violence. No wonder your kids are afraid of you mate. Grab your **** and **** off before i come back as i am done enabling you, don't ever get up in my face again…

You felt wholesome, you are what I needed to do better, and be better, you were changing my perspective in a positive way, you being you gave me a little hope.

Was that really you though, sometimes I just don’t know.

Today I’m going to write down on paper the real response to that last long txt you sent. Re-reading it…