Unsent text message to Sarah

I’m not silent because I’m processing or being avoidant. I’m silent because I don’t want to go to jail.

You wronged me, they wronged me. Laughed about it all night behind my back.

I walked away you keep reaching out, I don’t respond.

It’s been a year, give it up…

Hey Batman do you remember when we first met and we talked about running away together buying an RV and camping our way across the US getting married privately in the woods and the rain laying out under the arches looking at the stars and talking until the sun came up? I have a confession to make I held onto that…

Be part of a three

If there needs to be

Please take me out of the equation

I’d rather be…

I was rereading our text messages and suddenly the way I felt about you just made sense. I wasn’t second guessing myself anymore. But then there are the weird lies you told me. I don’t get it. Did you want to seem cool? What is your goal?

About you, M, is how much I still crave your attention. How a message from you or seeing some dumb **** like you added me yo your close friends list or followed me on spotify, lights my brain up. I know this is going nowhere. It's not even going back where it was before.

Please. I just want to text you that. A part of me thinks you’ll know what it means and a part of me doesn’t.