Unsent text message to Richard

About you, M, is how much I still crave your attention. How a message from you or seeing some dumb **** like you added me yo your close friends list or followed me on spotify, lights my brain up. I know this is going nowhere. It's not even going back where it was before.

Please. I just want to text you that. A part of me thinks you’ll know what it means and a part of me doesn’t.

Was out all day and decided to stay unplugged to be more present

Yet all I could think of was you

I wish I didn’t miss you as much as I do

But I do…

I would give anything to spend the rest of my life with you. To watch you grow old by my side and love you through every year of it.

How lucky I would be to share the next thirty or forty years with you. To give you children and a place to call home. There would be no greater honour than to be your partner.

If I were…

Hey. Figured I would just text you instead of dreaming we're talking again. I literally wake up at 2am every night after dreaming we were either talking or together. It's crazy to me that most of whatever we had was just over the phone. But when we were actually together, 😮‍💨, I don't think I've ever felt that much…

Swear down ive fabricated such a hectic story