Unsent text message to Natalie

Sometimes, in the rare moments we’re alone , I come so close to blurting out “I have feelings for you .”

Nights like these I wonder if I ever crossed your mind.

If you ever miss what we had..

If you notice the distance created between the two.

From being talkative every day to sudden answers here and there.. both short and long…

You could have sat anywhere in that room, but you chose to sit right next to me. Why? Does it mean anything? Are you having regrets? Was your love real after all? Or did you just want to wave it in my face that you're not mine anymore, and see me hurting? It's probably the second one, since I tried to call you the…

I put nails on and taking the bus, just trying to have a good night.

I wish you were here.

Your birthday is at the end of October. You lost your mom when you were 16. You like cars like it's oxygen. You have the best laugh I've ever heard. You fit up against me like you're the other half of me. You have the most perfect, unique eyes. Ive never seen eyes that come close to yours. We met when we were kids…

I know u think when we broke up i rushed into something new with her. And now that me and her are done, u think i will rush back into something with u again. But I'm not going to. That shouldn't hurt u tho. It means i care enough about you to not make the same mistakes. I know u get mad when u can't manipulate me and…