Unsent text message to Kevin

It’s actually so annoying that I do and I’m on this ******* website again writing this but I do

It’s not like a switch I can just turn on and off, you know

I suppose you still don’t know me well enough to know how devoted I get when I choose someone

It’s frustrating bc no matter what I say you’re going to doubt it too…

I know now that you never loved me. Yes, we are both happy now but you should have done the right thing by not screwing my chances with true happiness 5 years ago with someone who had the capacity to love me the way I need. I don't care if you think they are beneath me. They show me love, the way I've only dreamt of…

“You’re the best boyfriend I’ve ever had.” Then why did you ******* leave me?

how is someone supposed to cope with just having to see someone who mutilated them? with knowing they never faced consequences? that they're just walking around free, probably doing it to others?

how am i supposed to live in a world where i have to see leathertongue at my doctor's office?

The first one during after school volunteering felt hey i like you i want to see where this will go

15 years later

The last one first time seeing you in a month was hey ill always love you though were not in a romantic relationship anymore i still want you in my life

The grief is further ahead. The memory of the you I loved is there but I understand your state was only present for a restricted time. The anger at you who's not the least kind but instead covertly cruel taking advantage of my love, trust and care angers me, like watching bullying. It's part of what's wrong in the…