Unsent text message to Brittany

how's everything going? Whatcha been up to? Week two of classes all done and it feels like I started all over again lol. Driving home makes me think of you, I wish I'm on the way for one of our hangouts everytime I see the turn for your street. Feels weird that you're not there anymore.

I remember a while ago you told me you watched the movie Carrie. I still haven't watched it but I watched the new miniseries that's out. I enjoyed it. Its got some good quotes and soundtrack too. Its very good overall. Carrie has some pretty cute fits. I hope you enjoy it too. I think you will.

You really should focus…

I used to love Fridays. I always looked forward to whatever you came up with. Now all it does is remind me of your absence. I wonder to myself what you do now. Are you just by yourself, or have you found someone else to fill in for me. I guess I’ll never know.

I hate that I created this. If I had been upfront, you…

1-1.5s yrs later and you couldn't even remember a key component to our "deal"? Meanwhile this moving situation and it's "agreement terms" was like a ******* bible I read to myself every goddamn night. I couldn't forget it. It was my saving grace - like a ******* guardian angel.

I left the house. Untouched. Waiting for…

I know you like her. I wasn’t crazy. You emotionally cheated before and I knew it was happening again. Late night phone calls with her, calling her on your work breaks, getting off the phone with me and calling her right after. You say it’s nothing, “we just play Minecraft together.” Telling her to make a TikTok…

Therapy is hard on a good day. On a bad day, it's impossible not to be flooded with overwhelming grief about everything lost with the end of us.

This time last year my heart was filled with joy seeing both our families sitting around the big table. In our spooky house that was filled with the *********** of everyone…