Unsent text message to Kelsey

I wonder how you're doing, what you've been up to, whether you're laughing a lot, whether life is being kind to you. I wonder what you're sewing, what books you're reading, what music you're listening to, and whether you're finding joy in all those little things that make you who you are.

More than anything, I hope…

Have fun in TO this weekend. I know you are going to a concert, but lets be honest we both know you really just want to pet the stingrays at the aquarium. I got tickets to the Sens game next week. You should come, see a hockey game before you move across the world. Let me know. Have a great weekend.

Idk if u'll even read this but I'm still crazy about u.. Your smile, your cute face, your childish acts... istg, I can't get them outta my head. Idk how, but even after everything that's happened between us, u still manage to stay on my mind..

Whenever we're on calls, I literally can't take my eyes off u .the way u…

as i take notes, my mind drifts to you. i won't ever tell you this though.

But I still think of you often. I think of things I wish I could share with you but I can’t. It’s not like you would respond back anyways. I get it though…I didn’t at first, until I seen her profile randomly pop up and that confirmed why you had to ghost. It’s a loyalty and respect thing. Which is honestly why I…

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I'm sorry I brought the pedophile into our story. After my dad died, I found new sources of attention, and he eventually replaced you as my "on demand " dummy, along with the puppy who provided continuous emotional affection and support. I was lonely and needed someone available, and I filled the space with whoever…