Unsent text message to Gavin

Have fun in TO this weekend. I know you are going to a concert, but lets be honest we both know you really just want to pet the stingrays at the aquarium. I got tickets to the Sens game next week. You should come, see a hockey game before you move across the world. Let me know. Have a great weekend.

Idk if u'll even read this but I'm still crazy about u.. Your smile, your cute face, your childish acts... istg, I can't get them outta my head. Idk how, but even after everything that's happened between us, u still manage to stay on my mind..

Whenever we're on calls, I literally can't take my eyes off u .the way u…

as i take notes, my mind drifts to you. i won't ever tell you this though.

But I still think of you often. I think of things I wish I could share with you but I can’t. It’s not like you would respond back anyways. I get it though…I didn’t at first, until I seen her profile randomly pop up and that confirmed why you had to ghost. It’s a loyalty and respect thing. Which is honestly why I…

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I'm sorry I brought the pedophile into our story. After my dad died, I found new sources of attention, and he eventually replaced you as my "on demand " dummy, along with the puppy who provided continuous emotional affection and support. I was lonely and needed someone available, and I filled the space with whoever…

So you were being hateful and giving me the silent treatment all day Saturday. I begged you to tell me what's wrong. But we got up Sunday morning and you kissed me? I wasn't going to kiss you like i usually do every morning.becauae u had been a c_nt all night .What was that anyways? Later that night, we said, i love…