Unsent text message to Charles

So i was just sitting here, eating some ice cream and some fell off the sppon and went in my flip flops. Then i realized this is your favorite ice cream, strawberry cheese cake. You used to eat all the graham cracker out of it tho. It made me mad but i didn't care bc i loved you yk. That was ny favorite part too…

You want to know the dirtiest fantasy I ever kept? Things I imagine of you, from which stratospheres I have lept...

I'll tell you.

I imagine being able to keep you, and call you \mine/... To hold you tightly, for whatever sort of eternity that may exist in this place, in time.

I read our old texts when we starting talking.. it was so sweet. 🥹

I missed that version of us. Seeing how we were flirting and getting to know each other. It made me tear up. I wish we could go back to that. I would do anything to go back. I miss him so much. I’m trying to get over him and get through healing, but it…

It’s difficult to communicate with you while also trying to manage my emotions and protect my peace. The good thing is that I’ve been doing well so far. The way I respond to your texts may come across as me not being interested in communicating, but in reality, this is what moving forward looks like for me. I’m…

The weather's cool and I'm listening to music. Just like that day. The only difference is you're not around anymore.

I didn't get to hear your voice but I'm still hoping for one more chance that I can.

I think what I wanted most was Sunday mornings with you.

I wanted to wake up with my cheek against your chest, your hair messy from sleep, your glasses sitting on the bedside table

To spend another hour in bed kissing you, my hands against your skin, listening to your heartbeat beneath my ear.

I wanted our clothes in the…