Unsent text message to Ella

When I really really needed support and a distraction was my final straw. I can’t do this anymore. I’m so grateful for the friends who were there for me.

I don't understand the whole concept of the withholding closure game that u love so much. I literally sat and watched u hitting ignore on all those calls. I told you "you know that will never be me, right?" You thought i meant we would never break up...lol, nope I meant i will never be one of these poor b******* that…

I figured going on a holiday with friends would make me feel at least a bit more appreciative of life, turns out no matter where in the world I am, I'm going to be made to feel useless and underserving of happiness.

It would be so easy to just get lost in the mountains tonight and never return, it'll be better than the…

Just stop texting me...😪

Even though we can't be together tonight, our hearts will still beat as one. Good night my love. 💚

Good days are when I hear from you…when I actually get to see you….Bad days are days we don’t talk or see each other. I’ll take those good days any day. I’m stubborn but really trying.