Unsent text message to Mark

You're still my hero, dad. Always will be.

I'm sorry it all happened the way it did.

The last time I saw you in person, before your stroke, you told me when you died, I would just have to move on with my life.

Shows how well you know me…

true maturity is when you're not afraid to be like "idk"

I really hope you're happier now. I've been angry and mad so many times the past few months but I honestly think it was the grief of losing the person I love most.

I get it now. I wouldn't be happy or be in love with me, right now, if I was you either. you tried so hard. I do wish you'd communicated better at the end…

there's a possibility i was wrong about some things i've said. especially when i was a teenager, but. there's no time limit on "things i've said that were incorrect"

Im looking at are old messages and im sorry if i come out wrong im always ranting about random stuff and i just dont want to rush you into anything and i have always loved you i just hear the music you send and i just felt like it would’ve been better if i told you later but i wanted to tell you the whole time the…

How ironic it is that in the dying days of our relationship i picked up the habit of running(long distance running). The only thing i'd share with you is how much i ran. I had no much more to share except that.

Since our breakup i never ran again.