Unsent text message to Sean

I figured going on a holiday with friends would make me feel at least a bit more appreciative of life, turns out no matter where in the world I am, I'm going to be made to feel useless and underserving of happiness.

It would be so easy to just get lost in the mountains tonight and never return, it'll be better than the…

Just stop texting me...😪

Even though we can't be together tonight, our hearts will still beat as one. Good night my love. 💚

Good days are when I hear from you…when I actually get to see you….Bad days are days we don’t talk or see each other. I’ll take those good days any day. I’m stubborn but really trying.

I’m happy for something that hadn’t happened yet. The rollercoaster buckling of knees feeling. is that love? Or is it anxiety? Call it what you want…

Here I am trying Desperately fighting for things to get better Fighting for my kids to have a better life Fighting to figure out how to make this all work While you sit ideally by on your phone making jokes