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I want out of your game.
I want to stop having to be the one to strike conversation in order to have one.. if I dont you dont bother at all.
You couldnt care enough to even consider how I feel.
The things you put me through.. wanting me to act as if nothing ever happened. Keeping me low to keep the benefits while you go out to play.
I watch like an idiot, grieving what our future could have been... while you laugh it up with other romantic interests..
I was never going to be that person for you.. somehow I got dragged along and ended up hurt for what?
The words you spew at me are empty.. never matching your actions. Claiming this and that but I never feel what you say.. or maybe I do and thats what you want..
To keep me locked down so I feel what I felt for you in the beginning.. making it harder for me to leave..
I know I need to leave for my own good.. but youre making it hard to do..
Im already hurting and afraid to hurt more when leaving.
Maybe you'll care eventually when I do leave or maybe you wont at all..
Theres times i wish youd come to your senses and realize youre losing a person who genuinely cares and loves you unconditionally..
Theres only so much more I can take.. and im hitting my limit..
I loved you through thick and thin.. and still do..
I have to chose myself eventually or theres nothing of me left.. so much I can take.. my walls are crumbling down to the point im bare bones.. id still give myself up for you.. if you were serious.
Its hard to even tell anymore.. hard to even trust you.
One day ill find the courage.. right now ill continue to
disintegrate slowly.. until im eventually gone.
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